My Last MRI of 2019

I can't believe I am nearing my last MRI of the year. I am so happy this year is almost behind me and I am going into the new year hopeful. Mostly hopeful that my regular 3 month MRI and doctor visits will be deduced to every 6 months. I was thinking about how far… Continue reading My Last MRI of 2019

Not Today, Scanxiety!

A funny thing happened today: I remembered I have my next MRI in just 4 short days. I remembered, meaning, I had forgotten about it. WHAT?! This time, 3 months ago, the week leading up to my first, post diagnosis MRI had me riddled with nerves. I was starting to have bad dreams, I was… Continue reading Not Today, Scanxiety!

Feel It Completely and Let It Go

For a while there, I had really mastered the art of talking to myself in a positive way. I was able to calm any negative thoughts, calm any anger I was feeling or ill feelings and I was even able to constantly look on the bright side of this tumor. Lately, it's been a little… Continue reading Feel It Completely and Let It Go

I SHRUNK MY TUMOR.

I wasn't super nervous for my follow up appointment ... until the night before. The whole time leading up to this visit at Dana Farber I was calm, cool and collected. The MRI really freaked me out the most but the results, at that time, weren't bothersome to me. Then, the night before the appointment… Continue reading I SHRUNK MY TUMOR.

MRI’s: What to Expect

I had my follow up MRI last Friday! I say it excitedly because I am glad it's O V E R. The very first time my PCP told me I needed and MRI I immediately panicked thinking about my claustrophobia. I hate small, confined places. Knowing I can't get out of a small space can… Continue reading MRI’s: What to Expect

Scanxiety

It's a real thing, scanxiety. I'm almost 100% positive it's not considered a real word but trust me, it's a real feeling. One that I thought I would never have to feel but since I do, I need to feel it and let it go. These past few months, while on watch and wait, have… Continue reading Scanxiety