I am so sorry to have gone MIA.
I definitely miss writing my personal blog and documenting my Desmoid journey. I’m not going to lie though, I was not so good at juggling all the things I had to juggle this holiday season.
Between all the celebrations, my appointments, no days off from work, seeing my friends and adding some things to my side hustle, I’ve been straight out. Unfortunately that meant this blog, which means so much to me, took a backseat.
BUT now that I am back, I am SOOO ready to fill you in on all my news! Somewhere in between decking the halls and last minute shopping (woops) I got an MRI and had my follow up appointment with my oncologist.
I had the normal MRI jitters but to be honest if this diagnosis has taught me anything it’s that whatever is going to happen is going to happen, whether I worry about it or not. The best part about this scan was that they made Chris change into scrubs this time. I may or may not still be calling him Dr. McSteamy.
Meeting with my oncologist always makes me more nervous than my MRI for some reason. I know it’s just the atmosphere but with these jitters come gratefulness that what I have is manageable and there are so many people within those walls who are going through so much worse.
This visit was pleasant, though and my doctor officially CLEARED ME to reduce my scans and visits to every 6 months! He smiled, looked at me and asked me “Would you like to start visiting every 6 months?” uhhh .. DUH. My mom, dad, Chris and myself (all who attend every appointment with me) were elated. Cause for celebration I would say!
The truth is I’m just living life like my tumor doesn’t exist and the less power I give it, the less bothersome it is. When it first shrunk in June to now it has remained stable and the fact that my oncologist said he “wouldn’t even recommend” treatment at this point was music to my ears. Mind set is everything. What you focus on grows, negative or positive.
Once that wonderful, full of good news appointment was done, I felt like I could take a deep breath and really enjoy the holiday’s. Chris and I hosted our first Christmas Eve at our house. We had a huge amount of help from my parents but the food was delicious and everyone had a good time being together. That’s what the holidays are all about!
We rang in the new year quietly at home, just how we prefer it. I haven’t conjured up a resolution just yet but just promised myself to continue to focus on whats important, my health and my loved ones.
We also celebrated my dad’s 60th right before the new year and I also got to spend time with some of my best friends from high school. These get together’s remind me how important it is to surround yourself with good people you trust and who love you just the way you love them.
SOO to wrap this up a bit: I AM BACK, BABY. My little hiatus wasn’t on purpose but it was necessary. I hope you all enjoyed your holiday’s with your loved ones. Here’s to a new decade!
Also, before I go, here’s a photo of Guapo to make you smile because who doesn’t need to see a bulldog in a Santa costume on a sled?