Hot Mess Express

My whole life I have been a ball of stress. I always tend to think of the worst possible outcome in any situation and harp on that bad outcome, in my head, until it becomes larger than life.

Because I’ve always taken things on wholeheartedly this way, I know stress was a major factor in getting a sporadic Desmoid Tumor.

Ever since I made my lifestyle change, that has been a part of the mission, to learn how to not only fuel my body properly with food, but fuel my body properly with the right energy and thoughts. This has probably been the most challenging aspect of my change because teaching yourself to react differently is not an easy task. When my tumor was really flourishing I wasn’t in a good place in a lot of aspects of my life.

My job at the time was overtaking my every thought. There were deadlines to meet, goals to reach and a manager that believed instilling fear in employees would drive results. I remember feeling anxious on Saturday for what Monday had in store for me. I would cry at night to my husband about situations that were pertaining to work and to my mom on my  lunch about how I was spoken to. I ultimately had a panic attack that landed me in the ER via ambulance. I remember the second they removed my IV I went back to the office to fill out something that was on deadline and was “important.”

Looking back on it now I can see just how awful it was for me to be in an atmosphere like that. I felt my health deteriorating and I saw how it impacted me but I stayed because I am not the type to give up a job without another one set in place.

Once I was diagnosed, though, I realized this type of stressful, harmful energy could no longer be a part of my life. Whether it was always saying yes to things I didn’t want to say yes to or taking on stress in an unhealthy way, I needed to make a shift. I needed to put me first and do what was best for me. Here are a couple of things I do now to help my energy not only be calming in situations that would easily excite me but to also put out the best energy I can to attract the right people in my life:

I acknowledge stress

I will never live a stress free life. None of us will. It’s part of life, like it or not. How I react to it, however can make or break the situation. If something is stressing me out, I talk about it with the people I love. Talking about the situation instead of keeping it bottled up can make a world of different and those you love have a way of making you feel better.

I take time for me

When I feel myself slipping into stress or know that something is effecting me negatively I stop the thought right there and do something for myself. I work out, or meditate, go for a walk with my dog or even just paint my nails.


I am grateful ALWAYS

I wake up each morning feeling gratitude. I am grateful I am able to leave my bed and go to work (even if it’s earlier than i’d like). I am grateful to do a job I enjoy doing and I am grateful, always, for another day.

I focus on the things I can control

One of the only things we can change in life is our reaction to the things that stress us or the things that make us upset. Negative energy is so bad for us. Our bodies hold negative energy that can be harmful so, when something happens and its beyond my control I remind myself it is and focus on how I react instead.

Charge those darn crystals

If you’ve read my post on crystals you know they have been new for me to this journey. I find them so important in my healing process and in my stress management. I set my intention in them after they charge with the most positive, uplifting thoughts and keep them near me all day when I am feeling particularly low.

Say NO when you want to say no

I am somewhat of a people pleaser. I hate confrontation or hurting others feelings so sometimes I would find myself in situations that I knew I didn’t want to be in in the first place. I’ve since learned to say NO and that it’s OK to no longer participate in things that aren’t for you. The people who are your real people won’t be offended or upset, they will understand.

I know, in the end, it’s going to be ok

Whatever life throws at me, no matter how big or small it was meant for me. I am capable of handling ANYTHING and everything. I leave it to the universe and know there is a lesson to be learned in any circumstance.



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