Before my diagnosis it was so easy to get into a mundane weekly routine. I would wake up, go to work, begrudgingly get a work out in, make dinner, sleep and repeat 5 days a week.
Now, looking back, I realize it weighed on me because I took it all for granted.
I began to hate the things I used to once love. I stopped loving my work outs and instead tried to figure out ways to make them end quicker, like skipping meditation at the end of yoga even though that was my favorite part! I saw working out as a punishment and not something I should feel grateful to be able to do. I wasn’t excited to try new recipes anymore – instead I would just throw together whatever was easiest/fastest without even looking at the ingredients just so I could get on with my night and have some “me” time before I went to bed.
Since my wake up call, I’ve learned to really slow down and actually listen to what I want to do instead. If something doesn’t serve me, I walk away. No longer am I living in a world of doing things because I “should”. I mean, don’t take this the wrong way either, I should show up to work so I do but I mean more of “I should work out so I have to miss beach time with my nephews.”
Life isn’t just a 9-5 job. That is a huge part of my world, but it is not my life. My day can start and be full of wonderful activities I love to do as soon as I walk out of work! Because I have a new perspective on life, I am excited to go home and get on my spin bike and take 30 min to myself and work on me. I spend most of my lunch breaks looking up new and yummy recipes full of good for you ingredients that are beneficial to my health and learn different ways to tweak them to make them my own. If I get a call on a Wednesday night that my family is going to the beach, I join them! If I have to put off a work out for a day, or even for an hour, then I do that.
It’s so easy to let little things get in the way of the bigger picture. For me, it took a huge wake up call to reevaluate and find the true meaning of joy, but for you, I hope you are able to always choose joy simply because you can.